Down?

'This too shall pass' - may be the best thing to ever keep in mind, contrary to it's message - to hold on to in our life. Everything has it's time and transience is the best thing one can bet on. We get so embroiled in the rigmarole of the present, stressing for constance, getting accustommed to the want for permanence when in reality change is the best bargain, the best thing to have happened. We get stuck on such trivialities, especially me, that we forget to see the big picture.

There are phases in our lives, where we question everything, ourselves and the situations that surround us. Everything seems pointless and you seem to be the little paper boat that is being tossed around by stronger waves, where the purpose seems to have lost it's cause. We become mockery's subject and as strong as we can be, the heart does become weak and we become your own object of ridicule. Then, what seems to be the best is resigning to our fate, depriving ourselves of what we deserve, drowning our dreams and surrendering them to futility's capture and holding others responsible for our downfall. Then one fine day, we realise 'What did I just miss?'.

'I watched but what did I really see?'

'I heard but what did I really listen to?'

'I wanted but didn't I just forget to dream?'

Introspection is magical many a times, deep down we see what we want in life - the basics - the simplicity - 'A good life for oneself and our loved ones'. When we get tread back to the normal path after the derailment, all this time getting busy building castles out of muck, we wonder, what all did I waste my I time on?

Accountability should be checked against oneself first - I fell to outside forces when I could've put up a strong hold. This is where 'I' should be playing it's role. I am to blame and no one else.

If only I could remember all this at every downfall in my life. A conscious effort put in to write this note, so that I remember to read it every time I'm down and hopefully help the reader too. To remember that 'upheaval' also starts with 'up'. Every down has an up and that every up may have a down but then the cycle continues. It is a life that has to be LIVED.

It is MY life that I have to live, and live it my way - a good life! Amen! :-)